well when august coming...i felt so much worried...lots to worried about actually...
my application for the treatment for the illness is approved......though it cost my a lot..i mean really a lots of figure for that...but it doesnt matter...as long as im fit n healthy is good enuff after that....what a blessed to Almighty Allah...He's a good listenener to this poor heart always...its not easy for me..but HE always give the ways n strengths...thank you ya Allah....syukur teramat sesangat...
and Ramadhan yang mulia pun berlabuh...huhhh....at this month betul2 menguji...pe nak buat rite...nak sihat nak baik mcm biasa kenala berkorban harta...nak minta tolong kat kawan2?? huhhh lagi mengata ada laaaa....bukan nak tahu masalah kawan....bila tengok kita senang...dengki....tak tahu ke kita korban harta jual nak selamatkan nyawa sendiri aaaa...ada nak tanya??...no...ada nak ckp "can i help u, tak bnyak pun sikit boleh??"....pun tak jugak...so kawan2...please, understand....kalau tak nak tolong pun i dont mind...doesnt matter to me...but dont simply judging people who is really in a huge problem n need to be solved with dead or alive situation...tak kan semua benda i have to tell them...haishhhh....i faham kawan2 pun bukan semua yang senang nak tolong...n tak harap apa2 pun....so kalau tak tahu cerita next time datang tanya straight to my face..jangan dengar dari mulut orang....kadang2 orang yang bercerita tu ingat dah konfirm nak masuk syurga i guess...tu pasal semua tunduk dengar cerita onar dongengan nak cover aib dia...takpe janji tuhan tahu sudahh...ya Allah kenapa la aku leh berkawan dengan dia...tak macam aku kawan dgn shireen...the best ever fren in the world dia tu...
hmmm apapun that time kena tunggu after hari raya they told me....tak senang duduk di buatnya...macam2 haunted my mind sampai nitemare la tidurrr....goshhh!!...celik je mata counting the days nak dekat...wahhhh like time bomb nak meletopppsssss!!!
whatever it is...i have to be cool n sabar n sabar n sabar...i tahu myself ni penyabar orangnyerrr...heheheh...yes i am...kalau tak i tak sampai la nak sambung lagi tulis dalam ni...nak share what i feel, my thoughts, my shape of my heart before, after n now....huhuhu....
life is full of suprising.....have to admit it.....we never knew what's coming soon...just be prepare jer laaa....
