yess...im missing

..hmmm never want to lied to myself very much anymore...i do miss uu badly now n then..forever...denying it kills me very bad here...

only tears in my prayers could eased my pain missing uu badly inside...why?..i dont know...the feelings is so natural for u...i dont know bout u there...i guess u might be happy n forgotten me as before...its okay i never want to expect anything from u for now..things happened the way we dont want it to be...n we cant hide or run away from it...n we cant give more to it...so let it be gone...whether we hurting each other, we are blaming each other..the fact is me from my side i have to purposely let be apart from u...i cant see u in sadness, i cant see u in madness, i cant see u upset when something isnt right in my situation neither your situation there..

i just love you all these while...n i will continuing loving u like i used to...damnn i love n miss you the entire life of me...never i want to betrayal this love that i owned for decades in me...the love that i kept almost my life inside here...

i lost the smile that i used to adore so much when i saw it...i lost everything now..emptiness...

..sesaat...

sesaat itu amat berharga bagi aku sekarang ini..aku gunakan sesaat itu dgn sebaik-baik mungkin untuk aku nikmati dan aku kenang sampai akhir masa aku nanti..

setiap kali detik saat itu berlalu..pasti satu keresahan, ketakutan akan timbul dari hati ini..macam time bomb...tunggu dan tunggu..entah bila..aku harus bersedia..bersedia untuk apa sahaja...

dalam sesaat itu juga macam2 aku boleh fikir, boleh ingat sekarang ini...its too precious to be left blank in that second of time..rugiii!!!

nikmati apa yang ada di sekeliling kita dengan penuh di hargai dan menghargai kerana sesaat itu boleh merubah hidup kita dengan sekelip mata..

..fina...

haah nama dia fina...buah hati baru kesayangan aku...

tiap-tiap hari tak kira waktu aku cari fina..pada dia aku alunkan lagu hati ni..pada dia aku luahkan resah aku..hmmm macam ada chemistry kuat antara aku dengan fina lately ni..

fina memahami jiwa aku ikut alunan dan rentak dalam hati...yeahh fina you came out smoothly and perfectly so beautiful..infact terasa indah hidup aku ketika itu..

memetik fina guitar kesayangan aku kebelakangan ini memberi aku satu kepuasan dalam hati yang telah rundum ni..thank you fina kerana memahami...menghiburkan lara duka aku dengan kisah-kisah aku tika ini....

shireen

a friend who always with me all these while..a place to share my sorrow, my happiness..n my journey of love..

without you where will i be now..thank you reen...such a wonderful person you are...you understand me so well...you know what's inside me much more than myself..thanked to you to made me realised now that love does not conquer everything that we kept...now i know what's appreciation meant to my story...

yes reen..sometimes i cant lied to myself to pretend that i can easily let him go and forget bout himm..but im just a person with heart n love...n you know how deep it is...u remember in class at college??heheheheh..my LCCI exam paper...written his name...kena reject that paper send back...huhuhuhu....its all about him reen kann....im so crazy in love that time...yes till i realised now who he is...remember the muffler i wore it everyday in class..hehehe...now its gone reen...the necklace ingat tak tempah kat brader CM tu...only left the words aje...rantai dia dah hangusss..hmmm its all gone...

reeen, thanks being with me few months ago...surviving it in hardest time is so miracle to me...i thanked god for it..giving the chance again..to see surrounding me..n feel more pain with my love journey...yes reen it hurts me so much inside...whatelese i can do more to make him continuing living in comfort zone there..do i have choice???...NO...coz i love him so much reen...that's why im putting our relationship into this hardest way...for me...i dont know bout him know...i miss him reen...he can be mad at me now...if only he knew what im trying to do n say...i think he wouldnt be at this stage now...

im dying inside reen...dying in every single way i have now...n u much noted that now...but like u said life has to move on..no matter what happened...yes i know...but in saddness way...

..the last call....

prayers is the key..miracle is magic..surviving is a gift...so embrace life....

..truth never lies...

when honesty n truth came out..they never lies...

we can lied to ourselves being so selfish at one time...but we cant lied to feelings that we have inside..they spoke everything inside...everyone does that when comes to certain matters that they felt they dont want to be belong to other life..

they come when they want...they leave when they feel so...and they return when they need...
that is nature...facts of life....