yours to me...
"i will never leave you again, no matter what happen..i will always be here"..
words are easy to manipulate nowdays...hmmm with or without you...or with or without you loving me..im still the same old me....never change....
love is always for you deep inside me....
Friday, 26 February 2010
..my song to you forever...
KU DIHALAMAN RINDU
Di tengah kepekatan malam
Berdiri aku di halaman rindu
Dihembus kenangan lalu
Menjelmalah seraut wajah
Sekuntum bunga yang pernah ku puja
Tapi layu akhirnya
Ingin ku tembus tembok silam
Dan membaiki kesilapan kita
Yang tiada kita rasa
Dahulu maaf tak bererti
Darah muda menguasai diri
Begitu mudah membenci
Ku di halaman rindu
Hanya berteman
Bunga yang layu
Ku di halaman rindu
Tiada harum
Tiada madu
Oh kesalku membeku di kalbu
Di tengah kepekatan malam
Berdiri aku di halaman rindu
Dihembus kenangan lalu
Menjelmalah seraut wajah
Sekuntum bunga yang pernah ku puja
Tapi layu akhirnya
Ingin ku tembus tembok silam
Dan membaiki kesilapan kita
Yang tiada kita rasa
Dahulu maaf tak bererti
Darah muda menguasai diri
Begitu mudah membenci
Ku di halaman rindu
Hanya berteman
Bunga yang layu
Ku di halaman rindu
Tiada harum
Tiada madu
Oh kesalku membeku di kalbu
..detik2 itu...
yang pastinya detik-detik itu akan sampai jua...
bagaimana?, di mana?, bila masa?..hmmm aku bukan malaikat yang tahu semua...aku manusia makhluk tuhan yang di pinjam sementara di dunia untuk merasai nikmat dunia..untuk di cintai dan mencintai juga...aku juga manusia yang tidak pernah lari dari kesilapan...dan aku juga manusia yang tidak pernah sempurna sentiasa dari segalanya...tiada yang lagi sempurna dari DIA...
syukur aku panjatkan padaNya dengan nikmat yang telah diberikan selama ini...untuk aku merasai...dan aku bersyukur padaNya telah beri aku peluang itu untuk berjumpa dengan cinta sejati aku yang akan kekal abadi hingga nafas terakhirku nanti...terima kasih....
bagaimana?, di mana?, bila masa?..hmmm aku bukan malaikat yang tahu semua...aku manusia makhluk tuhan yang di pinjam sementara di dunia untuk merasai nikmat dunia..untuk di cintai dan mencintai juga...aku juga manusia yang tidak pernah lari dari kesilapan...dan aku juga manusia yang tidak pernah sempurna sentiasa dari segalanya...tiada yang lagi sempurna dari DIA...
syukur aku panjatkan padaNya dengan nikmat yang telah diberikan selama ini...untuk aku merasai...dan aku bersyukur padaNya telah beri aku peluang itu untuk berjumpa dengan cinta sejati aku yang akan kekal abadi hingga nafas terakhirku nanti...terima kasih....
..a fren...
to my dearest fren 'E'..
thank god that u are with me now...thank you for giving me the light back in my heart so that im not feeling very bad and down at the same time like before...thank you for sharing and crying with me for the sadness and laughter when it was the happiest day and thank you for your support to me...i owe u so much...love ya like my own sis...
may god give you happiness like you wanted and blessed you with kindness....thank you fren...
thank god that u are with me now...thank you for giving me the light back in my heart so that im not feeling very bad and down at the same time like before...thank you for sharing and crying with me for the sadness and laughter when it was the happiest day and thank you for your support to me...i owe u so much...love ya like my own sis...
may god give you happiness like you wanted and blessed you with kindness....thank you fren...
to the one i love....
hmmm 2 bulan dah berlalu...but u are always with me...
5.12.09...the last day we meet and the last day our love ends...dear..that night deep in my heart i wanted so much to tell you what had happened to me..but at the same time u came out with a messy problems that will jeopardy your relationship with the one you have n love entire life...i dont want to put somemore bitterness into the problems u have already...all of sudden my lips zipped to tell what's going on into me after listening to your words... i really much understand and know my stand with you...but at certain time u made me like i never want to understand your situation..but its ok i take it inside with me with all the pain i've to go thru that time...i dont want things to be so tensed..
apa pun my heart n love is always for u..never ever i want to put it away coz u are the greatest love and gift in me all these while..why should i put u away...u have been my inspired for almost of my life...i carried u in me...if i put u away meaning im putting my other half of life inside me away..u always complete my days and nites no matter u were with me or not...i love you just the way u are..though now things are not so good n never will be the same like the past 6months we meet where that was the greatest moment in our lives... i appreciate that and im thanking you for the love u giving me although its a while..
i never meant at all to hurt you..im just doing it for u...the happiness u should have..and i will be happy to see you happy there..trust me...kalau la u faham...n kalau u tahu apa i ada skrang mungkin keadaan akan jadi lagi buruk i guess...i dont want you to worry much on me, i dont want you to think on me all the time if you know my condition...
biar apapun sekarang u fikir...u have the rights..its all yours...who am i to judge myself to you kan...what ever it is..i hope u will understand..
lama mana i ada pun it doesnt really important to u sekarang..i guess you woulnt want to know..only god knows what im trying to said n to do...
if loving you is a sin...im doing it to be sinner so i can be in hell burning for loving you...n if im so wrong to love you just say it so...and i wont love you anymore....
5.12.09...the last day we meet and the last day our love ends...dear..that night deep in my heart i wanted so much to tell you what had happened to me..but at the same time u came out with a messy problems that will jeopardy your relationship with the one you have n love entire life...i dont want to put somemore bitterness into the problems u have already...all of sudden my lips zipped to tell what's going on into me after listening to your words... i really much understand and know my stand with you...but at certain time u made me like i never want to understand your situation..but its ok i take it inside with me with all the pain i've to go thru that time...i dont want things to be so tensed..
apa pun my heart n love is always for u..never ever i want to put it away coz u are the greatest love and gift in me all these while..why should i put u away...u have been my inspired for almost of my life...i carried u in me...if i put u away meaning im putting my other half of life inside me away..u always complete my days and nites no matter u were with me or not...i love you just the way u are..though now things are not so good n never will be the same like the past 6months we meet where that was the greatest moment in our lives... i appreciate that and im thanking you for the love u giving me although its a while..
i never meant at all to hurt you..im just doing it for u...the happiness u should have..and i will be happy to see you happy there..trust me...kalau la u faham...n kalau u tahu apa i ada skrang mungkin keadaan akan jadi lagi buruk i guess...i dont want you to worry much on me, i dont want you to think on me all the time if you know my condition...
biar apapun sekarang u fikir...u have the rights..its all yours...who am i to judge myself to you kan...what ever it is..i hope u will understand..
lama mana i ada pun it doesnt really important to u sekarang..i guess you woulnt want to know..only god knows what im trying to said n to do...
if loving you is a sin...im doing it to be sinner so i can be in hell burning for loving you...n if im so wrong to love you just say it so...and i wont love you anymore....
hmmm...after 2 months...
mmmm
such a long time have not been here...i just cant...but now i've a little strength that i gain inside me for now...yeahh life has to go on no matter what had happened..n things cant turn back like before..
keeping my self moving is the hardest thing to do in these 3months period...its hard, difficult n being so down that anyone could not feel and understand..
hmm..before i had a good, comfortable life and i was supposed to make lots of money (yeah money never enuff hehehehe), travel all over the world and write deep, meaningful words, notes that would express my wonder on the workings of the world..and published volumes of short stories inspired by the people i meet and i care and love on my life journey..
and im being shocked with the news that im not expecting at all in my entire life...that was the killing news...automatically i felt im losing my strength and im not so strong all of sudden...first in my mind at that time came out my children n my long love that i kept for so long in me..what would they feel?..how are they going to take it?...but i know god is always with me to guide me to the path that he given...
but sometimes we are just human with feelings that we sometimes could not hide it..i was a paradoxical wreck, but to the untrained eyes i was calm, controlled and though as an fox (konon laaa)...huhuhuhu
surviving it is miraculous, but to be what you onve were...that call for another miracle...a week may not seem much of a wait to anybody else but to me now..they are days worth counting...
such a long time have not been here...i just cant...but now i've a little strength that i gain inside me for now...yeahh life has to go on no matter what had happened..n things cant turn back like before..
keeping my self moving is the hardest thing to do in these 3months period...its hard, difficult n being so down that anyone could not feel and understand..
hmm..before i had a good, comfortable life and i was supposed to make lots of money (yeah money never enuff hehehehe), travel all over the world and write deep, meaningful words, notes that would express my wonder on the workings of the world..and published volumes of short stories inspired by the people i meet and i care and love on my life journey..
and im being shocked with the news that im not expecting at all in my entire life...that was the killing news...automatically i felt im losing my strength and im not so strong all of sudden...first in my mind at that time came out my children n my long love that i kept for so long in me..what would they feel?..how are they going to take it?...but i know god is always with me to guide me to the path that he given...
but sometimes we are just human with feelings that we sometimes could not hide it..i was a paradoxical wreck, but to the untrained eyes i was calm, controlled and though as an fox (konon laaa)...huhuhuhu
surviving it is miraculous, but to be what you onve were...that call for another miracle...a week may not seem much of a wait to anybody else but to me now..they are days worth counting...
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