dah lama tak panggil nama nana ni....
yes nana..
i always love you...i always have u in me when i need u most when im in greatest pain now...i love you nana...i missed u nana...only God knows how deep and bad my love and my rindu for you nana....although now i dont know u ada kisah or not...doesnt matter to me...apa yang penting, i tak penah berubah walau sebesar kuman pun...im still me...biar sampai mata i pejam buat selama2nya...u tetap in me nana...there will never be others to replace you in my heart and soul....that's my word for you all these while im living with it....
nana...
you tau tak..everytime i sakit sangat2 sampai keluar airmata ni nak tahan sakit...i will always remember your words to me "im here for you"...that is the strength i kept to stay alive to fight my pain nana....kalau la u boleh rasa apa i tanggung ni nana...you would drop your tears for me...that is the thing i taknak u buat if u tau....
nana...
dah setahun we keep silent kan..entah esok2 i senyap terus tak dapat la u nak cari lagi...takpe nana, i assured my love for you will remain forever here...apa ada setahun kan...22tahun i boleh bernafas without u around me..why not satu tahun ni kan...hmmm tak sama nana...tak sama...hari ni i gagah jugak buka blog precious ni...i nak tulis kat u nana...biarpun u tak pernah tahu bout this blog...i nak u tahu jugak nanti one fine day...in case you dapat tahu...at that time entah ada i lagi ke tak...sebab ni lah i tulis semua my feelings and my thought, my explanation here nana...biar u nak kata apapun...this is the fact...from my deepest heart that u never know selama setahun ni....
nana...
i miss u so much...apatah lagi dalam keadaan i yang tak berapa elok ni...seminggu dua ni...i kerap nangis nana....sakit sangat2..kadang2 dah tak tertanggung lagi...to eased my pain...i let some of my frens tahu bout my illness...apa yang i tak suka bila kawan2 tahu is some of them react sedih, terkejut, tak boleh terima...susah hati...menangis...Ya Allah! nana...benda2 macam ni la i takmau tengok kat u if u tahu setahun dulu...betapa siksa jiwa i tengok kawan2 yang react mcm tu...macam menyusahkan idup they all...but somehow i kena let go...entahlah nana, i hope you forgive me that's all...apapun u tetap terbaik dalam idup i...i feel so happy when u around me all these 22 years...in fact now u tak ada pun, i feel happy jugak...knowing u is there alive...
nana..
biarlah u benci i sangat2 sekarang ni pun tak pe nana...i dont really mind, as long as i dont want to see u broken into pieces bila tahu i will soon leave u di satu masa dan ketika kasih kita kuat bersemi...maafkan i nana...memang jiwa tersiksa dengan perpisahan ini..amat perit nana...hanya tuhan saja yang tahu perasaan ini untuk dilalui hingga ke nafas yang ada ini...biar setiap hari i mengalir airmata untuk u nana...i rela...dari i tengok u sedih coz of me....jujur dari dalam hati ni, i'll never want u to be away from me not even a second...tapi i have to nana...i kena kuat untuk lawan perasaan ni...tapi apa kan daya, im just a normal person with feelings...bohonglah i boleh let it go like magic....
nana...
last words from me...i love you so much (i want you to know that in the 1st place)....tak kan ada siapa pun boleh ganti cinta itu...there will be none....nana, kalau umur tak panjang..please remember me in your heart always...jangan lupa i nana...i dont know how u take it now...as for me, i keep it as a beautiful moments with you..so i'll never regret it so much...
nana...
we are human..and we could never be supper perfect in every way of life we have...we made mistakes..i made mistakes...mistakes is i never want you to know that im dying....that's all....
p.s : i love you........
