dear nana....
im writing this for you today..just for you...
there's no words to described when my mom ask me "how is ad doing???"...macam konkrit hempukkkk kepala i tetiba lah dat question keluar.... :P
well, i only reply "he's doing great n happy i guess mama, i dont even know anything bout him anymore now" and my mom gave me that (?)punya look...what now mama??? betul i tak tau mana dia, how is he doing..i dont want to know...if he can do macam tu, so do i sekarang nih...not in my diary lagi dah...well nana, it hurts me to said those kinda words actually...but that is the fact..we never meant to be with each other kannn....
Allah tu sempurna untuk bagi kita takdir...rela n redha kan ajer...ada lah benda lagi baik buat kita lepas ni...hmmm entahlah nana....dah lama fikiran n perasaan i tak terganggu dengan keadaan kita ni...hari ni bagaikan tersentap jiwa i sekali lagi...bila mama tanya bout u....cuma jawapan yang jujur dan ikhlas dari hati ni yang dapat i bagi pada mama....i tak harap apa-apa nana...its all over...but bohonglah kalau sikit pun hati ni tak terusik bila berkaitan dengan u nana...
and again i broke my tears this evening just for you nana....dah lama i tak macam ni...seriously dah setahun lebih tak keluar airmata semata untuk u...and those memories came back one by one stepping into my vision sekarang....and im fighthing to losing it now...i dont want to get cracked again n again...hmmmm...
i miss u nana...that is all i can tell right now...
