nana...

everytime bila i balik to my parents house, for sure my mom would ask about you...too hard for me to lie to her that im okay...well, she knows how much my love for you all these while...words that i can only said to her is "im sure his happy now mom...whatelse can i expect"...and she can only comfort me with "sabar..at least u meet him already"...ohh mama, how i wish that meeting never end...i have to end and put the full stop coz my illness is bad, and i dont want him to live in sadness thinking of it...would anyone care to see the one they love like that??? i dont think so...or some of them have the heart to do so...but not me..

hope u are happy nana...my wish for u...though there are times i cried loud for letting go the misery of you and me...that does not made me a happy person jugakkk...but at least i cried out everything for love burden selama ni nana...n yet i can write it out here for you to know (welll i dont think you know bout this blog) huhuhuh...ohhh what the heckkk....i feel much comfortable here nana jotting all what i have to said...

its like fading away nana...i can feel it...i dont know why....maybe the things that i have gone thru without u made me realised what is true love about when one doesnt commited to understand and to know what the other party living with...its too bad nana, and im a bit frustrated with you when u can easily made your assumption with others regarding me...i dont blamed you, but im here to ask directly nana, why from others...do you know how bad i am for the last one year nana??...dont you know i've already know how "death" is, and i felt it...do you know thousand miles i went to healed my illness???do you know how terrible i am struggling coz of the pain nana??DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU????...nahhhh, i dont think you want to know, that is why u remain silent till now....

whatelse can i say nana, its in your hand...God is great with his gift and sometimes suprises that we dont expect it in life....masyaAllah....