a birthday wish and birthday thoughts to you...

"uuu...i've waited for more than 20years for this special moment of you to wish by myself to you personally..but i fail to do it again in my life of waiting n counting this special day of you..whatelse i can do more now..things are not perfect for us to be together virtually here..

anyway i just want to complete my birthday wish to you here..this could be my last and only wish for u, while my breath is weezing smoothly at this moment...Happy Birthday dear, may Allah bless u for now n always...gives u joy and happiness that u deserved more through this wonderful year...im praying for your healthy, wealthy and success always in my pray never to forget that..and for last, my love to u is always like before and in the same place in my heart where it belongs for the first time im in love with you..and it will remains there forever no matter how hard n bad for me to carry it for now...i love you with all my life and i miss you badly with every breath coming out from me..in if it stop..i will still miss u...

and again Happy Birthday...im sorry..please forgive me..i didnt meant to hurt our feelings this bad and im too deep hurt inside for all this...all i want to do is keeping u happy and not seeing you in sadness for knowing my illness and in unproper condition...uuu, sometimes i can "feel" you when u need me most...im always for you..never in my heart, life to left you behind...i would never want to do that..unless death is coming...the feels is there.. i didnt ask it to come, but it passed by in my soul all of sudden...coz you are here always in me..

my only wish is..just for once i want to see you before my eyes shutdown forever..just this once and i wont ask for more...

have a wonderful birthday...i love youu forever...and always be with you..."